Sunday 30 January 2011

Stay strong, dear heart

I'M BACK!

Never thought I'd be back. But here I am! *Taa-daaa* Tomorrow will be the last day of January. And... I'm still at HOME! MasyaAllah, a blessing! Alhamdullilah. I wake up everyday having no serious worries about anything (excluding the days when I had interviews). I'll definitely going to miss this looong holidays once I start working which I don't know when. My job-hunting has been a bittersweet experience. The feeling of being rejected is bitter. It crushed you down deep inside. It hit you there where it hurts the most. Bitter, I tell you. Makes me think twice now before I reject or say no to anything. For I know what it feels like to be rejected. Wouldn't want anyone to experience the same thing.

But then knowing that everything happens for a reason turns that bitter feeling from being rejected into a sweet feeling of comfort. You get me? It may be that I want something so bad but then it is not good for me, and it may be that I hate something but then it is good for me. And verily only Allah knows while I don't (refer to Al Baqarah 2:216). His Knowledge is beyond words and I, I don't have the knowledge. I know nothing, nil, zero except that which Allah wants me to know. It is such a real comfort to the heart knowing that Allah the All-Wise, All-Knowing alone is the Best of Planners :) I belong to Him and only to Him I shall return. Hence, in the end, that bitter feeling is gone. And all that is left is HOPE in Him alone, insyaAllah :)

I'll end this one with a quote from Ibnul Qayyim Al Jawziyyah Rahimahullah. It goes, "And verily for everything that a slave losses there is a substitute, but the one who losses Allah will never find anything to replace Him."

Selamat malam. Salams! :) And oh, boredom brings me back here! In case you're wondering. Hehe. Let's see how long this one will last (how long I can go on with this blog before I get bored again). xxx!