Dear Stranger

Dear Stranger,

Salaams and hello. I met you yesterday. It was a rainy Saturday. Your hair was short and it suits you just well. Your white shirt was smartly tucked in your dark pants. You had pen and papers in your hands. Ready to note down whatever that was necessary. I have to admit, you are a good-looking stranger. I especially like to see the shape of your face. Unique in its own way, in my opinion.

I would like to think that you are good inside; as good as you look on the outside. And I would like to think that I am right on this. May Allah bless you at all times.

Goodbye stranger. It was nice meeting you :)

The one who hopes to not see you again,

Zati J.

"What is taken by Allah is NEVER lost" - Yasmin Mogahed

Today is the 3rd of Muharram 1433. Alhamdullilah, another year, another opportunity to be a better slave of Allah. Marhaban 1433! A lot has been going on. A real lot. Something very special and precious was stolen from me. I wasn't home when it was stolen. It happened during one of the weekdays. I remember exactly the date and day when it happened - Tuesday, November 8th. A day after Aidiladha celebration. How can I forget...

After work, I had pizzas with the cousins after which I went to Jame mosque for maghreb prayer. There was a few number of miss calls and a text message from mama. I was worried. In my mind, she must had something important to tell. Otherwise, she wouldn't call me again and again. Oh, I forgot. Earlier that day, I received a wall post from adik. She posted a sad face :( on my wall. I was worried. I had no idea what was that about. So when I received a few number of miss calls from mama, I thought something happen to adik. I gave mama a call. I remember she asked where I was. Then she told about my stolen stuff and about what happened to our home. I also remember she said something, "Redha kan saja". I was okay at first but slowly tears fell down my cheeks. I cried. I couldn't help it. I remember telling myself to calm down.

12th September 2007 - 8th November 2011. I had it for quite a long time. Had it with me for all the years while I was in university. Blessed, alhamdullilah. Allah knows what is best for me and enough is Allah for me. I know and I believe with all my heart that whatever had happened or will happen is all good for me. Allah is the One who created me from nothing to something. Allah is the One who loves me best like no others. Allah is the One who gives me everything that I need. He is the One who is the Most Kind, the Most Loving, the Most Merciful. He does not take anything away from me except that He meant something good for me. He does not take anything away from me to see me suffer or in pain. He only does what He does to help me, to give me the opportunity to be near to Him so that in my heart there will only be Him :)

It was saddening at first. When I tried to digest the information, and to learn of the fact that it was gone... just like that. That was saddening. But when I remember that everything will be gone eventually; all will diminish; not a single thing will last, my heart was at peace again even though there was still a few drop of tears flowing down my cheeks. Alhamdullilah thumma alhamdullilah. Thank You Allah for everything. Everything :)

"No fatigue, nor disease, nor sorrow, nor sadness, nor hurt, nor distress befalls a Muslim, even if it were the prick he receives from a thorn, but that Allah expiates some of his sins for that" - Prophet Muhammad S.A.W (reported in Bukhari)

"Don't be sad if He separates you from something/someone you love. If only we knew about His plans, our hearts would melt with the warmth of His love" - Unknown

Until next time, insyaAllah. Good night. Salaams xx

How to love?

"You had a lot of moments that didn't last forever,

Now you in the corner tryna put it together,

How to love?"

That's lil Wayne asking how to love. Do you know how to love?

What I know is this: To love someone is to love yourself first. And to love yourself is to love your Creator :)

Personally, I'm still trying to love Him the way I should be loving Him. For how can I expect to feel the pleasure of being in love with someone if I don't have love in my heart for Him who created LOVE. I believe that when the right time comes, He who is the Most Loving, will show me the way to the one who will show me how to love :) If not in this world, maybe in the afterlife.

May He give me and you the strength to love Him more and more each day.

Big love. Salaams xx

Salahkah aku?

A sad yet beautiful piece of song. But again, sad.

Salahkah Aku - Fakhrul Razi by Adi Rani

Kalau inda mau sakit, bercintalah kerana Allah. InsyaAllah, akan dihadirkan Nya ketenangan saat gelisah; akan dihadirkan Nya kekuatan saat lemah. And yang paling penting jua, bercinta kerana Allah membawa ke syurga, insyaAllah :) Siuk kan kalau dapat sama orang-orang yang kita sayang bukan saja di dunia yang sekejap ani tapi di sana yang kekal abadi jua?

Salaams xxx

If you have Allah, you have everything

SubhanAllah. Alhamdullilah. Allahuakbar.

Indahnya segala aturan Mu, ya Allah. Sangat indah. Aku mohon pada Mu agar Engkau kurniakan diri ku keupayaan untuk sentiasa redha dengan segala yang telah Engkau aturkan buat ku. Kerana sungguh Engkau yang menciptakan diri ku daripada tiada kepada ada, dan hanya Engkaulah yang Maha Mengetahui segala yang terbaik buat diri ku. Diri ku hanya insan yang lemah lagi hina, tidak mempunyai pengetahuan tentang apa apa melainkan apa yang Engkau izinkan untuk aku mengetahuinya.

Ya Allah, bila hati ini dilanda kesedihan, aku mohon agar Engkau kurniakan aku kekuatkan untuk menghadapi kesedihan itu dengan tabah. Bila hati ini dilanda perasaan marah, aku mohon agar Engkau kurniakan aku kesabaran agar dapat ku kawal perasaan marah ku. Bila hati ini dilanda perasaan rindu, aku mohon agar Engkau lindungi aku daripada merinduinya melebihi rindu ku kepada Mu dan kepada Nabi Muhammad SAW. Bila hati ini terasa ingin berputus asa, aku mohon agar Engkau kirimkan aku semangat untuk meneruskan perjuangan di dunia yang sementara ini.

Saratkan hati ku dengan cinta dan rindu buat Mu. Aku ingin, sangat ingin, agar dapat kembali kepada Mu dalam keadaan Engkau redha dengan diri ku. Aku ingin, sangat ingin, agar dapat bersua dengan kekasih Mu, Nabi Muhammad SAW. Izinkan aku mati dalam keadaan aku beriman kepada Mu, wahai Tuhan sekalian alam. Aamiin.

Marhaban Ya Ramadhan

Your presence was very much missed ya Ramadhan. Alhamdullilah thumma alhamdullilah, we meet again this year. Welcome Ramadhan 1432.

"Sekiranya umatku mengetahui kebaikan di dalam bulan Ramdhan nescaya mereka menginginkan agar sepanjang tahun semuanya menjadi Ramadhan." - Al-Hadis

Sabda Nabi Muhammad SAW: "Permulaan Ramadhan adalah rahmat, pertengahannya adalah pengampunan, manakala akhirnya merupakan pelepasan dari seksa nereka."

SubhanAllah, so blessed is this month of Ramadhan. Let's us all grab this opportunity to collect as many good deeds as we possibly can, to seek to be closed to Him, to gain His redha. Make this year Ramadhan count, let's!!! :)




I hope you will like the above as much as I do. Such a happy and cute piece of song. Salaams Ramadhan Kareem :) Please forgive any of my wrongdoings xxx

A light in the dark

Just when I thought I had a bad start to my day. My nasi was almost hangus (not because I don't know how to cook nasi but because I forgot to check on it while I was outside). And then my supposed to be half-boiled egg for breakfast didn't turn out to be the way I wanted it to be. It turned out to be fully boiled instead. So instead of having half-boiled, I had fully-boiled egg for breakfast. And I thought to myself while peeling the egg shell, "baru jua pagi..."

And then my phone rang. The screen showed number I'm not familiar with. Answered the phone and boy, I was speechless after I hung up. I can't describe in words what I was feeling right then. I was happy, scared, thankful, nervous, excited at the same time. It all mixed up together. It was like when I saw a person who I had a crush on. That feeling of seeing that one person you like and you then would get all cold and hot inside. It was like that.

Despite the mixed feeling, praises be to the One Who is The Most High, The Most Powerful. He makes the Most of Excellent Decisions. Whatever it is that He has given me or will give me, I believe it is for my best.

Salaams xxx

PS: You know that phrase "good things come to people who patiently wait", well guess what? It's true. Patient and not giving up are crucial ingredients to success. You need to have both. Not just one. I know sometimes it's just so hard to remain patient and not give up. When things just go all wrong, and there are all too much for you to take. You feeling all hopeless and unworthy. That is when you need to be EXTRA strong, try EXTRA more, and pray EXTRA hard. Just never lose hope. Allah is always there. Always close. Have faith in Him, and smile (: